I badly want to have a job or any source of income right now. I've been searching for two months now and I still don't get any. Not because I fail at applications but because I did not apply for anything at all! That sounds lame but yeah, seriously, I don't even submit a resume anywhere. The thing is even though I really want a job, I have to restrain myself from getting it just for now.

Since last month, I need to ask myself first, "Is it really what I need right now?", every time I think about it. I mean, I stopped schooling because of lots of things running in my mind which took every inch of focus I have on my studies. And that's the problem, I stopped not because I can't afford to study, more so not to get a job; but to find a solution to my lack of focus and to go back to college as soon as possible. Having a job will not solve that, though it may take away my frustrations for a while. However, it doesn't guarantees that I'll be able to somehow find my way back to schooling.

Prioritizing is not easy for me. I once tried seeing my destiny (or whatever) through Rune Cards during an org activity two/three years ago. It's not a tarot card that shows you your specific future; rather, it is more like a guide in life. It works this way: you'll pick three cards and those cards will represent your past, present, and future. I can't remember anymore what are the cards I've picked before. What I remember is that it is spot-on right! I don't really believe on stuff like that but I guess it worked in a way I cannot explain but real. So according to the cards, my past says something like I've had fair amount of accomplishments; my present says I want to do lots of different things; and my future tells me that I'll have a problem which way to go first. See, there's no denying it and it's not just Barnum Effect. It actually explains a lot about where I am right now in life. However, I regret that I did not heed the warnings and now I am at my worst.

So much for the drama! Anyway, I've decided to go back to school already because I understand now why such things happened and that I am ready to face life again more than ever. ;) For that to happen, I need to settle my ineligibility so that I can enroll again for the next sem which means I need to forget about working for the meantime. This is me, picking one road and focusing on that one until I get to the end of it. Or maybe I'll get a part-time job once I got back to school. Haha! :P

Most girls dream of being married someday. Of course, I also do. It's one of those childhood dreams that I have. I want to be married to a man I love and who truly loves me. I want it to be elegant and the best it could possibly be. I want it to be like in a fairy tale or like in the movies and all those real-life weddings I've seen as a flower girl and as a bridesmaid. I want it to be just like what I've been dreaming ever since.

No, I am not writing this because I'm getting married. I was reading my friends' updates on Facebook and I saw someone's photo album entitled "Our Wedding", I thought it's her wedding and viewed the album. To my surprise, I saw her cousin--my ex, and it struck me, oh, it's him, it's their wedding. I laughed at first because it seems like a joke. I mean, come on, they're only 18 years old, I don't even think they're mature enough to get married. And then I noticed the girl, she's pregnant, that explains. Oh well, it's not new nowadays, the teenage pregnancy rate here in the Philippines is skyrocketing. BTW, I'm not bitter about them getting married and all. I'm actually glad that I'm not in that position. :)

Going back to my idea of a wedding, I want it to be on the right time. You know, when I'm financially and emotionally ready. Hee. Of course, I don't want my parents nor my future husband's parents to shoulder all the expenses. And I'm still young for a more serious and married life. Most of all, I don't want to be married just because I got pregnant. That's just complicated and I don't want to complicate my life more than it is now. :P

Blogging is one of my hobbies. I blog in two different sites before, in my private Multiply account (where only my friends can read it) and in my Blogspot entitled Palacio (which I think, has at most five subscribers, LOL). I usually blog to rant, share my experiences, and rant. :P Now, I abandoned those two sites and made this one. And I hope that this will be different and won't make me abandon it too. Yeah, that's why I attended a blogging summit. Hee. ;)

Yesterday, Dan and I attended the second day of iBlog6 in UP. It was our first time to attend a blogging event. I've known this event since last year but I wasn't able to attend the iBlog5 because of conflict in my schedule. So this year, I made sure that I'll be able to attend it.

Us at the hallway

My stuff

So as a first-timer on bloggers' events, let me share with you the things I've learned on iBlog6:

Overall, we both enjoyed the event. Hannah Villais provided a good start for the whole program. Also, I love the talk on Political, Online Commentary and Social Media by Marck Ronald Rimorin. But I think the highlight of the event was taken by Mr. Joseph Gonzales filling the whole theater with laughter and making the most of us wanna go to Baler. :D And oh, I drooled seeing Mr. Juned Sonido's camera collection! Hee.

Below are some of the photos of the event I took.

Watching David after Dentist

Mr. Juned Sonido on Photoblogging

Performance by UP Concert Chorus

Yesterday afternoon, even books and the Internet bore me. My blue nail polish hasn't worn off yet but still, I decided to remove it and replace it with a new color. Fact: It takes at least 2 hours for me to finish cleaning and coloring my nails. Hee. I put on a Marquise polish but wasn't really satisfied. I took a photo to convince myself that it's okay but I'm not really good at convincing myself so I removed it afterwards and put on a clear nail polish instead. :P

Dan and I had dinner at our favorite restaurant last night. Dinners are our way of catching up on each other ever since he started working. That night, I can't believe that we talked mostly about gossips. Gossips about politicians, celebrities, and some of our acquaintances. Haha! Which makes me thinks, did I made him a gossip boy or is he really like that? Kidding! :P

After eating and chatting, we went to Landmark 'coz I need to buy a nail hardener and a glitter coat polish. But my eyes caught this pretty glittery black nail polish so I bought it too! Teehee.

Then we thought of watching a movie, or playing at Timezone, or having coffee...coffee wins! :D We continued gossiping, er, talking at SB.