My lola needs your prayer
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Meet my grandmother, or lola in Filipino. Her name is Felisa and we call her Lola Inda. Inda is a Kapampangan term for mother. She just turned 78 this last Valentine's Day. And now, she is suffering the most painful moment in her life.
I wasn't able to attend her last birthday because I have work on that day. But my sisters told me that she was still okay back then. And now I feel really bad for not being there. What we didn't know was that a day or so after that, she got sick and rushed to the hospital. Eventually, she was transferred here in Quezon City at the Philippine Heart Center. She was diagnosed of having Pneumonia and Bronchial Asthma, aside from that, she is also a Diabetic which worsens her health.
I wasn't aware that she's sick until my aunt told me, and at that time, she's been confined for two weeks already. I understand why they didn't told us right away. They don't want to worry us, perhaps they plan to tell us when she's in a better condition. After learning about that, I went to visit her right after my work. She's okay; not okay-okay, but not that bad-bad either. When I got there, she was in a private room but they told me that she stayed in the ICU for five days before that.
From then on, I visit her everyday and there were nights that I sleep at the hospital. At that time, she's in a recovery phase but I can still tell that she's getting tired of all the medications and of being bedridden. But she's not resisting to take medications and other tests, except at night. She's hard to handle at night that there should be someone awake to attend to her needs besides the nurse on duty. She screams when she's in pain, she refuses to take meds, and other stuff which are not really hard to attend to. But seeing her in pain, that is hardest. Not being able to do anything to take all those pain away from her is heartbreaking. But when she finally regained her appetite, when she laughs and talks, that gave us hope that she'll be okay in no time.
Actually, she was about to be discharged on March 5th but one of her doctor did not approved of it. He said that she still hasn't fully recovered yet and taking her out of the hospital will make her condition worse. So we stayed there for another day. But then, things got worse. Last Monday morning, March 7th, she's coughing so bad and was transferred again to the ICU. The doctors said that there's water in her lungs and also she has a lot of phlegm.
As of now, she's been hospitalized for almost a month. Another week in the ICU and not feeling any better. She's getting weaker which makes us so sad. Two days ago, the doctor's said that her kidneys are failing and she's not responding to her meds that they need to prescribe stronger ones. A lot of our relatives are visiting her now, including her still-living siblings. We don't know what is God's plan for her but we're not losing hope that she'll recover even if it's only a miracle we're hoping for.
I won't ask for donations and stuff, what I will ask you for is a prayer. Please include her in your prayers. Even if you don't know her that much; even if you're not related to her; pray for her because she is your kind, she's also a child of God. Please do it for her. Please help her. She is kind.
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| She is cool. :) |
My First Job, Ever!
Sunday, August 8, 2010
12:44 PM
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Labels: Librarianship , Personal , Project Befriending Life , Story of My Life , Work , 0 comments
Labels: Librarianship , Personal , Project Befriending Life , Story of My Life , Work , 0 comments
Hooray to my first job ever! :D What you don't know is that I was job-hunting last month. I'm not blogging about it because I don't want to jinx those pending applications. I'm not really that superstitious and all but I just don't want to count the eggs before they hatch. Yeah, whatever. :P
Job Hunting Experience
Yes, I've done all those stuff--submitting resumes, attending interviews, waiting for long hours, and going back to step one. It was hard and tiring, some are patience-consuming. First, I applied online to four call center companies. I chose call center because as of now, I don't have that much qualifications for other job. I know I said many times that I will never work as a call center agent because of many reasons I have. But well, we have to make choices and never waste an opportunity.
A day after I applied online, I received a call from those four companies and I was immediately set up for interview appointments. I canceled one appointment because it has conflict on my schedule and I'm actually not that interested in Makati area, especially if I'll be on a call center. The next one, I was declined because they were after the ones with call center experience already. The third one, I passed their series of test and was scheduled for a series of interviews. On the third final interview, I wasn't able to come because I was really sick. The last one was good, I passed their series of initial interviews. Supposedly there was a training but I passed the evaluation and was recommended for direct hiring immediately. Unfortunately, the only open account that time was for technical representatives and I don't qualify for that position because that also needs past experience. They told me to wait for a call when they got another account where I can fit, and not to worry because it doesn't mean that I fail and they won't call me again.
I learned a lot on my job hunting experience. The most important thing I learned is that I can extend my patience. I get to meet different people while waiting for my name to be called by the interviewer. I also experienced rush hour at the MRT station for the first time. Also, I think I improved on my communication skills because of those many interviews. Hee. And while on the process of applying for a job at a call center, I realized that I really really don't want that kind of job. It's like working abroad minus going abroad. I mean, yes, you work here in the Philippines but your clients are foreigners, your company is owned by foreigners, and your work schedule is based on their time. Yes, you may earn a lot more compared to other Filipinos who work here with a different job, but in the long run you are actually trading your health in exchange for a higher salary.
While waiting for a call from that company (where I was recommended for direct hiring), I was notified that UP College of Engineering Library II (EnggLib2) is hiring for two positions, one is for Information Specialist and the other one is for Information Assistant. At first, I was a bit hesitant because I'm not yet a college graduate and also because Dan is working there and that may be an issue. But after thinking about it a hundred times, I grabbed the opportunity.
I submitted my resume personally. They called me for an interview. Signed some papers. And waited for a call regarding my application status. By the way, Bianca, my orgmate, applied there too for the Information Specialist position.
And after two weeks of waiting, we both got hired! Yey! Then, I received another call for a meeting with the boss, which was actually for initial orientation. She told me everything about the job and that I will not be based at EnggLib2 but at EnggLib1 because, of course, Dan and I shouldn't be on the same office. At first I was a bit dismayed because I really prefer EnggLib2. Not that I think EnggLib1 isn't good, I haven't seen it yet in the first place. I just really admire the former. But I understand the reason behind it and I'm not really in the position to choose where I'll be assigned. So yeah, congratulations to me for landing a job! No sarcasm, seriously. :)
First Day At Work
I started my first day at work on August 5th. New environment, new acquaintances, new experience. I was nervous, of course, but they were really friendly and helpful that I didn't have a hard time on my first day, except for familiarizing myself with the work procedures.
I was assigned at the Reserve Section of the library and at the Cataloging Section. So 60% of my week goes to Users' Services and 40% goes to Technicals Services. Basically, I lend, cover, label, and shelve books; that's not just what a librarian does but that's what I do because I'm not yet a licensed librarian. Yes, mind you, we do have a licensure exam too. :P
I like this job because it would help me a lot with regards to the degree I'm taking. And of course, because I can finally earn and save up money to help my mom and for my plans of continuing my education.
Job Hunting Experience
Yes, I've done all those stuff--submitting resumes, attending interviews, waiting for long hours, and going back to step one. It was hard and tiring, some are patience-consuming. First, I applied online to four call center companies. I chose call center because as of now, I don't have that much qualifications for other job. I know I said many times that I will never work as a call center agent because of many reasons I have. But well, we have to make choices and never waste an opportunity.
A day after I applied online, I received a call from those four companies and I was immediately set up for interview appointments. I canceled one appointment because it has conflict on my schedule and I'm actually not that interested in Makati area, especially if I'll be on a call center. The next one, I was declined because they were after the ones with call center experience already. The third one, I passed their series of test and was scheduled for a series of interviews. On the third final interview, I wasn't able to come because I was really sick. The last one was good, I passed their series of initial interviews. Supposedly there was a training but I passed the evaluation and was recommended for direct hiring immediately. Unfortunately, the only open account that time was for technical representatives and I don't qualify for that position because that also needs past experience. They told me to wait for a call when they got another account where I can fit, and not to worry because it doesn't mean that I fail and they won't call me again.
I learned a lot on my job hunting experience. The most important thing I learned is that I can extend my patience. I get to meet different people while waiting for my name to be called by the interviewer. I also experienced rush hour at the MRT station for the first time. Also, I think I improved on my communication skills because of those many interviews. Hee. And while on the process of applying for a job at a call center, I realized that I really really don't want that kind of job. It's like working abroad minus going abroad. I mean, yes, you work here in the Philippines but your clients are foreigners, your company is owned by foreigners, and your work schedule is based on their time. Yes, you may earn a lot more compared to other Filipinos who work here with a different job, but in the long run you are actually trading your health in exchange for a higher salary.
While waiting for a call from that company (where I was recommended for direct hiring), I was notified that UP College of Engineering Library II (EnggLib2) is hiring for two positions, one is for Information Specialist and the other one is for Information Assistant. At first, I was a bit hesitant because I'm not yet a college graduate and also because Dan is working there and that may be an issue. But after thinking about it a hundred times, I grabbed the opportunity.
I submitted my resume personally. They called me for an interview. Signed some papers. And waited for a call regarding my application status. By the way, Bianca, my orgmate, applied there too for the Information Specialist position.
And after two weeks of waiting, we both got hired! Yey! Then, I received another call for a meeting with the boss, which was actually for initial orientation. She told me everything about the job and that I will not be based at EnggLib2 but at EnggLib1 because, of course, Dan and I shouldn't be on the same office. At first I was a bit dismayed because I really prefer EnggLib2. Not that I think EnggLib1 isn't good, I haven't seen it yet in the first place. I just really admire the former. But I understand the reason behind it and I'm not really in the position to choose where I'll be assigned. So yeah, congratulations to me for landing a job! No sarcasm, seriously. :)
First Day At Work
I started my first day at work on August 5th. New environment, new acquaintances, new experience. I was nervous, of course, but they were really friendly and helpful that I didn't have a hard time on my first day, except for familiarizing myself with the work procedures.
I was assigned at the Reserve Section of the library and at the Cataloging Section. So 60% of my week goes to Users' Services and 40% goes to Technicals Services. Basically, I lend, cover, label, and shelve books; that's not just what a librarian does but that's what I do because I'm not yet a licensed librarian. Yes, mind you, we do have a licensure exam too. :P
I like this job because it would help me a lot with regards to the degree I'm taking. And of course, because I can finally earn and save up money to help my mom and for my plans of continuing my education.
16 Days To Go
August, why are you so early this year? You know I'm not (financially, emotionally, and LOL, psychologically) ready yet. Oh well, but I still have to face you, I know that. August, you are my month as my birthday and our anniversary are with you.
OH MY GOD! I'm turning 20 in 16 days! >.<
So I was with Dan this morning, we had breakfast at McDo. I was ranting to him about my incoming birthday and how I still don't want to be 20. Then we had this funny conversation...
But I'm still worried about my birthday. Everyone's reminding me how near it is, even my neighbors. And I just realized that it's unfair that I'm the only one anxious about it, you should too! :P Maybe now you're thinking of what gift to give me, huh? Well, my friends, let me help you. TaDa! Here's my wish list! ;)
Note: I might still update this list anytime before my birthday. Hee.
OH MY GOD! I'm turning 20 in 16 days! >.<
So I was with Dan this morning, we had breakfast at McDo. I was ranting to him about my incoming birthday and how I still don't want to be 20. Then we had this funny conversation...
Me: Ok lang sakin kahit pagsabayin na lang natin yung celebration ng birthday ko at ng anniversary natin. :) Pati kahit isang gift lang. Hehe :D
Him: Bakit kasi hindi mo pa ako sinagot nung birthday mo e? Bakit kinabukasan pa? Haha!
Me: Sorry na. Pasalamat ka nga sinagot na kita nun e! Baka hindi pa naging tayo. LOL
And then he hugged me. :) I'm so blessed to have him.But I'm still worried about my birthday. Everyone's reminding me how near it is, even my neighbors. And I just realized that it's unfair that I'm the only one anxious about it, you should too! :P Maybe now you're thinking of what gift to give me, huh? Well, my friends, let me help you. TaDa! Here's my wish list! ;)
| (Book) Life on the refrigerator door / Alice Kuipers |
| (Book) It's not how good you are, it's how good you want to be / Paul Arden |
| Secret Wish by Anna Sui |
| Wacom Bamboo Pen Tablet |
Note: I might still update this list anytime before my birthday. Hee.
*images found on Web using Google Images
Power Mac Center's Photography Workshop
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
12:42 AM
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Labels: Events , Photography , Reviews , 0 comments
Labels: Events , Photography , Reviews , 0 comments
Photography and Aperture 3 Workshop
Led by Gunther Deichmann, an Australian Photographer
and Apple Certified Pro Trainer for Aperture
Presented by Power Mac Center
in partnership with UP College of Engineering Library II
and UP Future Librarians and Information Professionals of the Philippines (FLIPP)
Held at TLC, UP COE Library II on July 26, 2010
Despite my hesitation to attend this event due to P-Noy's State of the Nation Address (SONA), I still signed up for it because I don't have anything to do on that day and it was a free workshop. Note: I live near Sandigan and during SONAs, I'm (sort of) stuck here in our place because of the expected heavy traffic and closed roads. Going back, it wasn't my first time attending a Photography workshop. The student organization I am in used to have such event but of course we were usually outside the venue/room. Ergo, this was my first time to join as a participant. Fortunately, I arrived at the venue on time but unfortunately, I wasn't able to have lunch because I left the house too early. :(Led by Gunther Deichmann, an Australian Photographer
and Apple Certified Pro Trainer for Aperture
Presented by Power Mac Center
in partnership with UP College of Engineering Library II
and UP Future Librarians and Information Professionals of the Philippines (FLIPP)
Held at TLC, UP COE Library II on July 26, 2010
The workshop was amazing as was Mr. Gunther Deichmann or Mr. G.D. He is a great photographer and I love his pictures which were mostly about colors. Mr. G.D. conducted the workshop with full enthusiasm despite a quite timid audience. I like that he pointed out that capturing a very good photo does not depend on the tool or the camera used, it depends on the one taking it. After discussing Photography we were given 45 minutes to roam around the campus to take some shots. Forty-five minutes is not much of time especially because there's only a few interesting views and subjects around the venue. It was really a bit of a challenge that one has to be really creative to have good pictures. Regardless of the time limit, I still chose to go to the Sunken Garden, took some photos there and walked back to the venue and took another photos on the way.
Some of the photos I took for the contest and while waiting for the announcement of the winners:
For the contest, we were asked to pick only three entries. I had a really hard time choosing three pictures because I actually like four or five of them best. I'm a bit hesitant because some of them has low quality even though I find them really interesting. But then, Mr. G.D. assured us that he won't judge based on the sharpness and whatnot of the picture because we used different cameras. By the way, I used a point-and-shoot camera, a Casio Exilim (EX-Z77).
I guess I can say that we were all excited to hear who win because there were really great prizes. Third place winner will get a shirt from Power Mac Center, second place winner will get a three-in-one speaker, alarm clock, and radio(?), and the first place winner will get an iPod shuffle. Who doesn't want that?
Mr. G.D. was happy that there are lots of good shots that he gave a special award to a photo of a cat that was in an emo-like pose (to bad I don't have a copy). I tell you, that cat was really cute! Hee. :) For the third place, *drum roll* I won! Yey! I got a shirt! :D And then for the second place, I'm really surprised that another photo of mine was a candidate for winning. There were actually three and Mr. G.D. was having a hard time picking a winner that he suggested that the audience should decide which picture is their favorite. I didn't win. :( Haha, I'm just sad because I really want that cool speaker thing! :P And for the first place, Kimmy nailed it with all of her entries. Wow, she got a free iPod shuffle!
These are my entries for the contest:
| It didn't win. And yes, I had a feeling that it really won't because it's a typical shot. But this was my first successful shot of a subject like this. :) |
| This was the candidate for second place. I just love everything about this picture. Thanks Dan for giving me this lovely cupcake! :) |
Overall, everyone seemed that they enjoyed the workshop. It was a fun and productive day for all of us. I would like to thank Power Mac Center for hosting this event for free and Mr. G.D. for sharing with us his knowledge on Photography and inspiring us to develop our photography skill.
As for the co-presenter, UP FLIPP, I wish they prepared a bit more for the event especially the emcees. First, there should be no invocation included in the program as UP is a nonsectarian university. Also, as much as possible, speaking in TagLish should be avoided. No offense or anything to you guys but I think you can do better than that. :)
Winning on this contest is huge for me. Actually, it was my first time joining a Photography contest as I'm not really confident in my skills. I take photographs just for fun and also because it is therapeutic for me. So being appreciated that much gives me a boost of confidence. I browsed through Mr. G.D.'s online portfolio and it is so humbling that he likes my pictures. :)
My nth attempt to blog
Thursday, June 3, 2010
12:40 AM
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Labels: Personal , Project Befriending Life , Story of My Life , 0 comments
Finally, after staring for about half an hour on my laptop's screen, I wrote something to start this post.
Sometimes it's really hard to put up in words how you feel because you just can't find a word to describe it. I feel it most of the time, like I do now. It's when there's a lot going on inside your head that all you can do is stare. But you have to give it a try; to write something; to find the right words your mind has been screaming; to let it all out.
So here, I am, trying.
My last post was about me prioritizing. It was about me going back to school. It was the happy, excited, and determined me. But then I lost it; all of it. I was happy, excited, and determined. I really did want to go back to school. But a thing happened that made me change my mind.
About two weeks ago, I had a conversation with my mom. It was a serious one. She's working abroad and she's the only one supporting us financially. She told me that she might lose her work anytime now because the economy there is not really that good unlike before. I'm happy and worried at the same time. Happy because that means she'll be coming back home and we will be together again. Worried because who's going to support us now? The economy here is not that good either. And mom's getting older now. And I'm still not done with college. Also, I have three sisters.
It's a lot of pressure and frustration thinking about it. After a week, I decided to change priorities. My mom, however, is not forcing me to work nor asking me to forget about going back to school. She wants the best for me. But I am the eldest among my siblings and I do have a lot of responsibilities. In the first place, I should have been working now if only I finished schooling in time.
I want to finish college, maybe now is not my time. Besides, it's never too late to learn and go to school. For now, I want to find a job and work to help my mom. She's been working all her life and she's been doing it alone. It's about time I help her.
My mom doesn't know about my decision yet. But I am going to tell her soon. I already applied for a job and hopefully they'll hire me. I'm not sure if I made the "right" choice but I'm certain that it's not wrong either.
There, I feel better now.
Prioritizing
Sunday, April 25, 2010
12:37 AM
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Labels: Personal , Project Befriending Life , Story of My Life , 0 comments
I badly want to have a job or any source of income right now. I've been searching for two months now and I still don't get any. Not because I fail at applications but because I did not apply for anything at all! That sounds lame but yeah, seriously, I don't even submit a resume anywhere. The thing is even though I really want a job, I have to restrain myself from getting it just for now.
Since last month, I need to ask myself first, "Is it really what I need right now?", every time I think about it. I mean, I stopped schooling because of lots of things running in my mind which took every inch of focus I have on my studies. And that's the problem, I stopped not because I can't afford to study, more so not to get a job; but to find a solution to my lack of focus and to go back to college as soon as possible. Having a job will not solve that, though it may take away my frustrations for a while. However, it doesn't guarantees that I'll be able to somehow find my way back to schooling.
Prioritizing is not easy for me. I once tried seeing my destiny (or whatever) through Rune Cards during an org activity two/three years ago. It's not a tarot card that shows you your specific future; rather, it is more like a guide in life. It works this way: you'll pick three cards and those cards will represent your past, present, and future. I can't remember anymore what are the cards I've picked before. What I remember is that it is spot-on right! I don't really believe on stuff like that but I guess it worked in a way I cannot explain but real. So according to the cards, my past says something like I've had fair amount of accomplishments; my present says I want to do lots of different things; and my future tells me that I'll have a problem which way to go first. See, there's no denying it and it's not just Barnum Effect. It actually explains a lot about where I am right now in life. However, I regret that I did not heed the warnings and now I am at my worst.
So much for the drama! Anyway, I've decided to go back to school already because I understand now why such things happened and that I am ready to face life again more than ever. ;) For that to happen, I need to settle my ineligibility so that I can enroll again for the next sem which means I need to forget about working for the meantime. This is me, picking one road and focusing on that one until I get to the end of it. Or maybe I'll get a part-time job once I got back to school. Haha! :P
Thoughts on Marriage
Most girls dream of being married someday. Of course, I also do. It's one of those childhood dreams that I have. I want to be married to a man I love and who truly loves me. I want it to be elegant and the best it could possibly be. I want it to be like in a fairy tale or like in the movies and all those real-life weddings I've seen as a flower girl and as a bridesmaid. I want it to be just like what I've been dreaming ever since.
No, I am not writing this because I'm getting married. I was reading my friends' updates on Facebook and I saw someone's photo album entitled "Our Wedding", I thought it's her wedding and viewed the album. To my surprise, I saw her cousin--my ex, and it struck me, oh, it's him, it's their wedding. I laughed at first because it seems like a joke. I mean, come on, they're only 18 years old, I don't even think they're mature enough to get married. And then I noticed the girl, she's pregnant, that explains. Oh well, it's not new nowadays, the teenage pregnancy rate here in the Philippines is skyrocketing. BTW, I'm not bitter about them getting married and all. I'm actually glad that I'm not in that position. :)
Going back to my idea of a wedding, I want it to be on the right time. You know, when I'm financially and emotionally ready. Hee. Of course, I don't want my parents nor my future husband's parents to shoulder all the expenses. And I'm still young for a more serious and married life. Most of all, I don't want to be married just because I got pregnant. That's just complicated and I don't want to complicate my life more than it is now. :P
iBlog6
Blogging is one of my hobbies. I blog in two different sites before, in my private Multiply account (where only my friends can read it) and in my Blogspot entitled Palacio (which I think, has at most five subscribers, LOL). I usually blog to rant, share my experiences, and rant. :P Now, I abandoned those two sites and made this one. And I hope that this will be different and won't make me abandon it too. Yeah, that's why I attended a blogging summit. Hee. ;)
Yesterday, Dan and I attended the second day of iBlog6 in UP. It was our first time to attend a blogging event. I've known this event since last year but I wasn't able to attend the iBlog5 because of conflict in my schedule. So this year, I made sure that I'll be able to attend it.
So as a first-timer on bloggers' events, let me share with you the things I've learned on iBlog6:
- SEO yields traffic and traffic is equal to money in Ads.
- Don't go to the dentist, you'll get high. Or do if you want to get high. (c/o David After Dentist) LOL Just Kidding! :D
- Everyone is sexy enough to be a video blogger.
- Good photography does not only depend on the camera but also on the photographer.
- You just don't blog to earn money in Ads, you blog to satisfy your readers. :)
- Blog is the new emerging trend in disseminating reliable and accurate information. And it can be a very powerful tool.
- Baler, the movie, was not shot at Baler. What?! LOL
Overall, we both enjoyed the event. Hannah Villais provided a good start for the whole program. Also, I love the talk on Political, Online Commentary and Social Media by Marck Ronald Rimorin. But I think the highlight of the event was taken by Mr. Joseph Gonzales filling the whole theater with laughter and making the most of us wanna go to Baler. :D And oh, I drooled seeing Mr. Juned Sonido's camera collection! Hee.
Below are some of the photos of the event I took.
Nails, Colors, and Sisters
Friday, April 16, 2010
10:30 PM
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Labels: Lazy Afternoons , Personal , Photography , Story of My Life , 0 comments
Labels: Lazy Afternoons , Personal , Photography , Story of My Life , 0 comments
Yesterday afternoon, even books and the Internet bore me. My blue nail polish hasn't worn off yet but still, I decided to remove it and replace it with a new color. Fact: It takes at least 2 hours for me to finish cleaning and coloring my nails. Hee. I put on a Marquise polish but wasn't really satisfied. I took a photo to convince myself that it's okay but I'm not really good at convincing myself so I removed it afterwards and put on a clear nail polish instead. :P
Then I remembered watching a video tutorial on gradient nails so I tried doing it on my sister--Doy. It's really frustrating especially if it's your first time to do it. Plus my sister's nails are short and rounded so yeah, good luck to me. Haha! I messed up a nail or two but the rest are pretty I'm so proud of myself! LOL
And then my other sister--Cym--wants the same on her nails but I got lazy already and said no to her. Bad Ate. Hee. So Doy designed Cym's nails with I-don't-know-what. But she liked it anyway. :P
See, having sisters or being all-girls in a family has perks too. You can get free mani and pedi! Teehee ;)
There, let me just show you some of my nail polish collection. :D
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